February 2012
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Fuck.
The longer since the opening, the more I know that rapid exposure to hundreds of people has somehow injured my mind. It’s hard to explain.
Like… maybe a bit of a computer analogy would be useful. Normally when I overload the resulting shutdown is more or less graceful. The abilities that go away do so in a relatively orderly and predictable fashion, even if it’s severely...
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Now it all makes sense.
You know that art opening I was at yesterday, that my art was in? I’d guessed that there were 50-100 people there. It turned out there were hundreds. In the plural. Now everything makes sense. o_O
Of course they consider it all quite a success. And I understand why. And I’m glad for them. But FUCK this is going to take forever to recover from. This kind of overload...
sometimes davids autism really bugs me →
allies-person:
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he doesnt care about people
like
911 - doesnt give a shit, he didnt know them, why should he care?
famine in africa - same as above
homeless people on the streets - same as above
also he`s racist, he is equal opportunity racist tho, he hates everyone, including those of…
he`s my...
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This guy at the opening.
This one artist at the opening talked about how he’d been an artist for sixty years but his brain injury completely changed the tone of his artwork. It made it cheerful instead of gloomy. He has no idea why this happened, it wasn’t on purpose.
I think it’s one of those examples of how even conditions that seem to only take things away can turn out to have a good effect on...
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The connection between self-help fanatics and...
I figured out something I couldn’t explain before about the way some people use social justice jargon.
A long time ago there was this time period when I’d keep meeting people who said they were really into self-improvement and 12 step groups and stuff. And the more intense the person was about saying this, the more I learned to back the hell off.
Because what they’d...
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OMG I feel ripped to shreds. I feel like I have...
[If anyone from there reads this, this isn’t personal. I’m autistic, and if you stick me in a room with that number of people, even the most wonderful people will have this effect on me. And the overload meant I was unable to use the quiet area because my brain was too full to remember. Those of you that I remember were mostly great and I’m thankful to all of you. That...
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Watch[My eyes going all over the place and blinking randomly for some reason. With loud chaotic people noises.]
Has this eye thing happened to anyone else?
I just got back from a heavily overloading art opening. I only noticed something was up with my eyes when people started touching me to show they were there like they’d been doing to the blind woman next to me. It continued on and off...
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“When someone with the authority of a teacher, say, describes the world and you...”
– Adrienne Rich
I know nothing of the context, I just saw it in a friend’s blog. I’m about to post a response to it in my next post.
(via youneedacat) and the Junot Diaz quote about vampires? And the TED talk about existing in stories. All go together! TO THE ATTENTION OF: Julia.
(via...
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Empty Mirrors and Redwoods
This is in response to a quote I just posted:
“When someone with the authority of a teacher, say, describes the world and you are not in it, there is a moment of psychic disequilibrium, as if you looked into a mirror and saw nothing.” —Adrienne Rich
This is the story of my life. Not just teachers. Everyone. Everywhere. Not a moment. A lifetime.
Which is probably why one of my biggest goals...
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“When someone with the authority of a teacher, say, describes the world and you...”
– Adrienne Rich
I know nothing of the context, I just saw it in a friend’s blog. I’m about to post a response to it in my next post. Here’s a link to my response.
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